This is just a quick hello….
I don’t trust myself to speak with equanimity when I am so bloated from sugar derived from a red bean filled, just eat the last one, doughnut.
This weekend began hungrily enough. M and I debated about eating lunch at Sam Woo’s. I lost.
We ate their Beef Broccoli with ramen noodles (way too much ginger), Orange and Kung Pao Chicken with rice. What they lack in quality, they give back in styrofoam containers, sublimated affection in their portions. A one item combo could have easily satisfied two. And since M and I weren’t hungry, we had to each have a combo unto ourselves.
We walk back into the grocery store to find dessert to cleanse out palate after lunch. Sam Woo hasn’t decided to change his deep frying oil in this century. Next to the Customer Service desk, there was staff marketing the week’s special on red grapes. In a bowl of crushed ice, there were red grapes chilling. The young lady served each fruit with individual toothpicks to the passing shoppers.
Perhaps it was the enormous size of each grape, the presentation of fruit on a pick or the exotic quality of all the “orientals” shopping in the market that confused the Caucasian female to ask “What is that?”
M, “That is one of the stupidest questions I have ever heard. What is the matter with her? Has she not seen a grape before?”
She heard his words. She didn’t read the sign that wrote the fruit and its special price for the week.
It must be overwhelming to be the minority in the room.
It retards your speech and disorients you in terms of public manners and self knowledge.
You feel like the environment is unfamiliar even though you know you have been grocery shopping for most of your adult life, you have seen demonstrators sell samples and feed strangers walking by on the hour at the local Costcos.
You even “see” people of color while at work and in other spaces while living your daily southern california sunny life but you defensively get retarded and insecure wondering if the person with “slanted” eyes and high water pants speaks (fluent) English.
Your English breaks down and your speech slow and pitch high.
Simply accept that you are in the cultural minority and adjust accordingly to the environment. Don’t regress or get retarded voluntarily. And if you don’t know that you don’t know, decide how to go next time with a friend, a guide into this foreign land in your back yard.